I decided that it wasn’t working with the new therapist and I . It was not an easy DE scion. But it needed to happen. We ended on good terms. Which with me that’s progress. I did it in a grown up way. I was honest and I said I was having trouble working with a male , and I think a female therapist would be better for me. I started asking around with my friends with people I knew who were in therapy, and one of my friends lead me to a new female trauma therapist. She is out of town. I think I feel safer working with someone out of town. With the town I live in, every one knows everyone and for different reasons in my community I’ve found it a little bit challenging working with the medical practices in my town.
On Thursday my friend is going with me to try the new therapist. She sounded nice on the phone and looking forward to meeting people. Some people have asked me what I still need therapy for after being in therapy for five years previously? Well, at times I don’t know how to answer that. I do know with the trauma that I had been through didn’t happen over night, so I know that I’m not going to be healed overnight. I recently tried being in a relationship and as soon as we started to get physical, I freaked out. I want to be able to have a loving and healthy relationship someday. I think that’s why I still want to be in therapy. I still feel that I have unresolved issues that I need to work on and I’m not where I want to be yet on my own. That’s ok. I just want to keep moving forward and not let my past victimize me anymore.
It’s ok to change your therapist. You don’t have to stay with them if it isn’t working. It helps if you talk to the therapist about what’s going on. Like I did. It’s also ok to try different ones until you find the right one for you. After all your the one paying for the services you should be happy with what and who you are seeing.
My journey starts again. I’m hoping it won’t be that hard searching for a new one. I feel really good so far about my choices and I know the right one will come along soon.